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  ...presents... Concise Guide to Forgetting How Much You Suck
                                                         by Jason Farnon

                      >>> a cDc publication.......1994 <<<
                        -cDc- CULT OF THE DEAD COW -cDc-
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     "Guh.  I suck.  Everything sucks.  Diediedie!!!sadjkhsaldhj"

     How many times have you said this to yourself?  Things just suck, people
are stupid.  You haven't washed in a while and are probably better off dead.
Once again, cDc comes to the rescue.  Here are some methods of passing the time
until you die.  They have been tested and proven to work.  No guess work
involved here...  have fun, and don't eat the brown acid.

1) Sleep

     Seems pretty obvious, right?  You'd be amazed how many people overlook
this.  Here is a secret tip for you: did you know that you don't have to be
tired or drowsy to sleep?  I bet you didn't.  Don't stay up thinking something
cool is going to happen.  Don't go hang out with people who suck as much as
you.  You know nothing cool will happen.  It never does.  But you waste your
time like a moron going "out" and coming back with no satisfaction whatsoever.
Why not just stay home and sleep?  Your bed is warm, and nobody can bother you.
You can't be frustrated with trying to do anything cool, because you never
attempted anything to begin with.

     Sleep eighteen hours a day if you can get away with it.  Sleep any place
where you know you will not get sodomized.  You know you don't have to be
social if your eyes are closed.  I have learned that if people think you're
sleeping, they won't try to talk to you.  You know how much you hate that
interaction thing.  Plus, when you sleep, you'll feel better.  For all the
hours you've wasted doing nothing, you could do something that makes you happy.
Just accept that you will die a worthless piece of shit having contributed
nothing worthwhile to this hypocritical shithole society.  It makes doing
nothing so much easier.  They don't deserve your brilliance anyway.

2) Foreign Substances

     Why not put things into your body that will give you a false sense of
security, superiority, or confidence?  I mean, as long as you are content, who
cares what other people think?  Remember, it's all in your mind.  No matter
what they say, no matter where they place you: in the end your demise will be
your fault and your fault only.  If you win in your mind, you can be burning to
death while maggots chew on your eyes and still have a sense of accomplishment.

     So you have decided to destroy your body with drugs.  Good call.  Acid
will make you very happy, as you will appreciate things so much more.  You see
people being so damn happy... laughing, and you wonder how they can be so happy
when we are slowly approaching the Apocalypse.  You aren't at fault.  They are
just morons who are going to burn in Hell.  But if you want to experience what
they feel, drop out.  Everything will make sense.  All of a sudden, the
doorknob you took for granted will fascinate you to no end.  Trees and lakes
will be beautiful again, at least for twelve hours.  Do a lot of acid.  You
have nothing to lose.  You can only gain insight to their "other" world.  No
other drug is worth it.  In addition, acid is very very cheap.  Even if it
becomes a habit, it won't be one you'll have to sell your body for: only your
furniture.  Fucking up your mind is okay.  Having skid marks is not.  Marijuana
is out of the question as it is easily detectable and will prevent you from
getting your McJob.

     There, I used a Generation-X term.  That's all you are.  Generation-X.
You're like a textbook, you little fuck.  Don't think you're some superior
being close to discovering the answers everyone has forgotten.  You are
nothing.  You are SHIT.  There are so many before you that were worthless and
confused like you, and there will be so many afterwards.  You will make no
impact on the world, and will scapegoat it to the fact that no one understands
your brilliance.  You're worthless, you fuckhead.

     "Get a drug habit and die."
          -- Milk and Cheese

     As I was saying, the drugs with the quick rushes like nitrous, and drugs
that are physically addictive like cocaine are just not worth it.  I'd rather
not go into the ramifications.  If you don't believe me, try for yourself.  In
fact, I encourage it.  There will be less of you, and I will have a better
chance of getting a confused and hopelessly lost Generation X woman.

     Then there is alcohol.  Alcohol is great.  It makes you forget, and can be
useful if you ever need to amputate a leg.  Always carry some of your favorite
beverage in a Thermos.  Don't drink beer, beer is for stupid people.  If you
drink beer, may you rot in Hell.  Alcohol is a big excuse.  "Give me a break,
man, I was drunk."  Fuck you, pal, there are no breaks.  Only losers drink at
parties.  Just sad people drink with other people.  Cool people drink alone.
You heard me, alone.  Alone with an issue of _Stickboy_ and rad music.

     When you drink alone, you can think.  When you drink alone, you don't need
other people to impress.  Fact.  You're drinking.  No one needs to know you can
drink half a keg without puking.  Bar hopping is for faggots.  Alcohol will
also help you get to sleep when some eternal questions are bugging you to no

3) Find Companionship

     Find a girl.  Yes.  Find a girl.  One more time.  Find a girl.  [I'm a
guy and this is my perspective.  Other people, do the gender math.]  It's not
as hard as you may think.  Let me rephrase that.  Get a girl.  If you look for
one, you'll never find one.  I think someone intelligent said that.  You'll
accidentally stumble into her, somehow.  As long as you don't suck that much,
it is inevitable.  You may be introduced, or you might wind up in the same jail
cell.  Hold on to her.  She will be your crutch in this cruel and disgusting
world.  Together the planet will be your toilet paper.  You won't need anyone
else, as now you're doing more than winning in your mind.  You're winning in
her mind, and that's so much more reassuring.  Have violent angry sex, or
whatever makes both of you happy.  You will be happy.  You'll cut your penis
off if she asks you to.  But you will not care.  And then when you need her
most, she'll disappear.  After the physical aspect is taken for granted, you
will realize that your relationship is shit.  It has no damn substance.  Just
two lost children in a big confusing world, grabbing at anything in the dark.
Now its time to do lots of acid and die.

4) Clubs

     Go to shows or clubs and draw blood.  Go to some stupid teen angst Nirvana
show or something of that degree, and get into the pit.  Make sure you bring
small sharp objects.  You see, the people at angst shows are wussies, and would
never hurt you.  Hurt them, bruise them, and inflict the pain on them that they
deserve.  Or go to a real show, and swing your arms and body around wildly. 
Most of the time, if you pass it off as dancing, nobody will bother you.  You
can injure yourself and other people and get your angst out.  It's all angst.
Just remember, you are not special.  You suck!  You are a fucking cockroach
that will be crushed by the intelligent ones.  Or maybe you'll get picked up by
some whore at the club.  If you have taken my advice, you've probably come to
the club drunk out of your mind.  Not having any idea what is going on, you
decided it would be a super idea to have sex with this she-beast.  Inevitably
you will get AIDS, and will rot and your fingers will fall off.  It's not a fun
way to die, but you can be an asshole by giving other people AIDS and spreading
your disease.

5) Hit Your Head Against the Wall

     This is a little bit like going to a show, but it's in a controlled
environment.  The harm you inflict on yourself relies completely on your sanity
and tolerance for pain.  If Big Biff from _Club Big Hair_ decides to decorate
your face with his fist, there is no use arguing.  Biff will stop when he
pleases, most likely when it's last call.  On the other hand, you can stop
hitting your head on the wall any time you wish.  Most likely the numbing pain
will get to you, but that would be the exact thing you wanted to accomplish.
The physical pain will help you forget the questions that have kept you up at
night.  Blood takes precedence over man's inhumanity to man.

6) Get a Job

     Yeah, get a job.  It's not as hard as you may you think.  Even if you are
lazy and would rather roll over and die, there are jobs intended for your
mind-set!  If you have an ounce of brain matter, you shouldn't have a problem
finding a job.  There are Generation X opportunities everywhere.  Get a job
that doesn't require a high school education.  Even five dollars an hour adds
up.  You won't have time to think because you'll be too busy taking shit from
you McManager.  Everyday you will come home exhausted out of your mind.  You
won't have time to worry about how much things suck, because you will just be
grateful to God that you are not working.  This cycle continues until you die.
There is another benefit of working.  You'll have more money for drugs.

7) Fun With Your Bladder

     You never thought that your bladder could make you happy.  Just like
everything else, you take your bladder for granted.  For kicks, next time you
have to urinate... don't.  Don't urinate for a day or two, until the pain is
excruciating.  Then go to the bathroom.  You will feel such stupendous
satisfaction and relief, like nothing matters at all except for the fact that
your bladder is empty.  And you know what?  It's true.

8) Destroy People Who Suck More Than You

     This is my personal favorite.  There are subsets of this which will be
included later.  Basically, you know who you're better than.  The people who
swim in ecstasy of their own stupidity...  for them, ignorance is bliss.  You
sometimes wonder if you would be better off if you were like them.  Probably
so.  Make them pay.  Insult them, make fun of them and make their lives hell.
Laughing at fat people and the handicapped is also not out of the question.
Anything that will boost your ego by stepping on someone else's head.
Sometimes you might get hurt, but it's worth it.  You always win in your head
anyway.  If you need courage to insult people who are stupid but much larger
than you, you can always resort to alcohol.  It's such a wonderful invention.
There are so many damn idiots.  cDc wouldn't exist otherwise.  Laugh at the
grunge losers who still haven't had their umbilical cords cut.  Laugh at the
blind sheep getting raped by the media.  Laugh at your insecure friends.  You
are above all of them.  You are God.

9) Offend People

     Offending people is a great pastime.  You need to find a cause and run
with it.  Luckily, you don't have to know anything the cause to piss people
off.  Generally you can promote this cause with much more fervor if you have a
bias one way or another with it.  The possibilities are endless.  Hand out
NAMBLA literature in front of a church.  Hold up a sign with a penis on it
stating, "The uncircumcised have rights too."  It's best to insult something
that is very dear to someone, like something they have wasted (and 'wasted' is
the key word), their lives plugging away.  A t-shirt that says "Breast cancer
is good.  More breathing room on the train" will definitely do the trick.
Getting people angry with you will waste time, and you might actually get
people to join your moronic cause.  Then you can get money out of them.  Look
what it did for Scientology.  Racism is also very important when you are
offending people.  There is nothing that offends people more than racism.  You
don't have to be a racist to practice racism at all.  Buy a dirty joke book and
make it your bible.  Then you can stand in Harvard Square with a microphone
saying things like, "How do you get a black guy out of a tree in Mississippi?
Cut the rope!"  Huh huh.

10) IRC

     IRC stands for Internet Relay Chat.  With IRC you can harass people and
you can seek companionship, all from the comfort of your own home.  IRC is an
anarchy, and absolutely no rules apply.  It is safe to assume this, at least
most of the time.  With IRC, a little technical knowledge goes a long, long
way.  Hardcore IRC users take IRC to be some kind of virtual world where they
can unwind.  The truth is that IRC is like anything else on the Internet; a
collection of TCP/IP connections and ASCII characters.  There is no special
privilege required to start a channel on IRC.  Some channels to check out are:


     You'll most likely find me on one of them on any given night.  You see,
people on these channels spend so much time on IRC because they are insecure
stupid fucks.  They'd rather hide behind their screens than deal with people in
person.  They are easy to annoy, and get very frustrated when their measly
kicks and bans have no effect on you.  They will attempt to mail your
administrator.  If your admin is cool, he'll tell 'em to fuck off.  Otherwise
you might get a call from your parole officer (private joke).  Here is a

*** sadboy (xxxxxxxx@xxx.xxx) has joined channel #gaysex
*** Topic for #gaysex: it's oscar night
*** Users on #gaysex: sadboy @Woolf KY-KEV arich socrates mathlab DSV HornDog
+Achilles @TaterTot @Mantas @Tonybear nycguy Russkii NYCe1 @Caz oof Hot4U
+@Pledge AfroChick Harder @TallLion studhumpr @Xerxes @ButchBub @Skunky
+@Lasher- @SilvrWing @ChefD @L00K bi-jock @Rooh @MrPeabody @cEvin
 afrochick loves horndog!
 hi arich, sadboy
> hello
 hi sadboy
 Wooooo!  This place is getting pretty hostile.
 why sad?
> how are you "men" doing tonight?
 hello to woolf & sadboy
> i am GAY and i want SEX
> someone GAY here please give me SEX
*Tonybear* talk to me.
> i want GAY SEX right now
-> *Tonybear* ok
*** Tonybear is ~tonylove@mindvox.phantom.com (Adam Greenberg)
*** on channels: @#gaysex
*** on irc via server irc.colorado.EDU (Univ of Colorado Server (2.8.*))
 sadboy: you have hands ..use em'
> give me GAY SEX now
> someone give me GAY SEX
***ACTION Lasher- spreads it's throbbing lips until they are big enough to
+engulf sadboy
***ACTION Lasher- lowers itself onto sadboy , lower...lower...lower, until
+nothing of sadboy is left
 sadboy is never heard from again...such a pity...
*** Lasher- is now known as STANK0
*** You have been kicked off channel #gaysex by STANK0 (<<>>)
*** sadboy (xxxxxx@xxx.xxx) has joined channel #gaysex
*** Topic for #gaysex: it's oscar night
***ACTION STANK0 morphs back into Lasher-
*** STANK0 is now known as Lasher-
> i need my GAY SEX
*Tonybear* where are you located and what can i do for you?
*** You have been kicked off channel #gaysex by Skunky (get a life! )
*** #gaysex : Cannot send to channel (from ra.oc.com)
-> *Tonybear* give me GAY SEX
*** sadboy (xxxxxxx@xxx.xxx) has joined channel #gaysex
*** Topic for #gaysex: it's oscar night
> GAY SEX please
> i need more GAY SEX
*Tonybear* tell me what you like?
 `remove sadboy
*** Mode change "-o+b sadboy *!*xxxxxxx@*.xxx.xxx" on channel #gaysex by
*** You have been kicked off channel #gaysex by cEvin (LaTeR.)
*** #gaysex :Sorry, cannot join channel. (Banned from channel)
-> *Tonybear* coffee cake

     I came there to harass people and some dork actually wanted to have
virtual sex with me.  It's amazing how fucking pathetic people can get.  Rot in
Hell, Tonybear.  Eventually I was banned, but I did have my chuckles.  Another
thing I enjoy flooding to #gaysex is ASCII breasts.  Mail my cat if you want
those.  I will be glad to comply.  The possibilities for IRC are endless, and
the best part is that you don't have to leave your house!

11) Stare at a Picture of Tori Amos

     Trust me.

12) Install Hardware and Play Old Wares

     Installing cool hardware and playing wares is something you can do to pass
the time.  Hardware is impartial.  It either works or it doesn't.  Flip a
couple of jumpers and the sound card works.  No such luck with the other
problems in life.  Things cannot get too complicated with hardware.  If
hardware pisses of you off enough, just slam it against the wall.  Stomp on it
until it is a mangled circuit board.  Hardware will be sorry the day it tried
to fuck with you.  Who says you always lose?  You just kicked ass!

     Playing really old wares will get your mind off of things.  Endless hours
at _Donkey Kong_ will do the trick.  Amass outrageous numbers of old 8-bit
Atari, Commodore, and Apple II games.  Contemporary stuff is way too
complicated, and often requires typing.  If you have to type, it's too much
effort.  Games that only use two arrow keys are great.  Play until your eyes
bleed.  You will die soon.  Hey, if you complain about how much you suck
enough, I'll do you a favor and kill you.  Make both of us happy.

13) Kill Yourself

     Seems like the obvious answer, right?  Well I feel suicide is the last
possible solution.  For starters, killing yourself takes way too much fucking
energy, plus you might make someone happy.  God forbid that might happen.  A
human life is just way too valuable.  You may not think this, but its true.  No
matter if it does massive amounts of good, or better yet massive amounts of
evil, it has so much damn power.  You can make so many stupid people miserable.
Why would you want to give all of that up?  If you do go, go with a bang.  Any
wuss can swallow fifty aspirins.  Be rad, light yourself on fire.  Stand
up for what you really believe in.  Shoot your elected representatives.  Shoot
your neighbor's dog.  Drive across the country shooting minorities.  Then do it
again the other direction and shoot majorities.  Do something that they will
never forget.  And then when it can't get any worse, with everyone on your ass,
it gets better.  You kill yourself.  You are now less miserable, and have way
fewer responsibilities.

14) Stare at the Wall

     This one I picked up from someone I loiter with on the phone often.  It is
not a personal favorite of mine, as I would rather sleep.  He speaks highly of
it, however.  If you have the patience to stare at the wall for a long time,
you will begin to see amazing things.  We take walls for granted, you know.
I personally do not have the patience to look at a wall for prolonged periods
of time.

15) Write Textfiles

     Write textfiles.  Be an art fag.  Wear all black, smoke cloves, and wait
to die.  You have so much damn anger and energy.  Don't let it go to waste.
Unite, and crush the opposition.  Always remember that you are superior, and
they are miserable whether they look it or not.  Pipe you anger into something
 constructive and kick some fucking ass.  And when in doubt, place your
thumb a few inches from your index finger and scream, "I'm crushing your head!"
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